Song in My Head

Usually, my day starts with Calfgrit7 coming into our room to let us know he’s awake. He always walks around to his mom’s side and says, “Can I get in bed with you?” She says, “Yes,” he gets in, and I get up. I grab my robe and go to the bathroom for my shower.

Before the water even gets warm, there’s a song playing in my head. It’s a different song every day, and I have no idea where it comes from. We don’t have music playing in our room overnight, so it’s not something I heard while sleeping. Occasionally it’s a song I know I heard the day before, sometimes it’s a song I haven’t heard in years. Sometimes it’s a song I know most of the lyrics for, but sometimes all I know is maybe one or two lines of the chorus.

This music in my head drives me crazy. Especially when I’m in the shower, with the warmth and drone of the water acting as a sensory deprivation chamber — a time when it would be good to calmly think about the coming day — a song is playing, repeating in my head. It drowns out all attempts to think.

This has gone on for many years. Is this normal? Is this common?

It’s the worst when the song is one I don’t like. This morning I had one verse, (the title), from Belinda Carlysle’s “Circle in the Sand” going over and over in my head. I hate that song, but it was just repeating “Circle in the sand goes round and round,” Argh! I don’t even know if that’s the actual words of the song. But those words with the music were driving me mad.

The song in my head has always faded away shortly after I get out of the shower, and “Circle in the Sand” was no different, thank God! By the time I’m finished brushing my teeth, I can think clearly about anything I want.

At one point, a few years ago, I kept a record of the songs I had in my head every morning. After a few weeks, (a couple of dozen songs), I couldn’t determine any pattern. Pop, rock, country, hip-hop, even theme music with no words, all make their appearance in my minds broken record player.

Bullgrit